Today my anxiety is a mess. I didn't sleep too well. I also have no idea whats going on with my meds. I can't remember what I took and what I didnt and I'm just super confused. I think I've had my 3 valiums for the day. I know I took a 20 gedon this morning. At least I think I did. All I know is that I've taken both my topamaxs and a pepcid. I just got confused with my sleep being so off last night.

Either way my anxiety has been bad and I went out and it was tough. I felt like people were looking at me. I went to T mobil to get my headphones to work and the guy said "did you look on youtube?" I did not waste my time and my safety to bring a $thousand phone and $300 headphones in just to be turned away. He claimed they werent charged. Looked in one drawer for a charger. Then gave them back to me.

So no today hasnt been the best day and I can't figure it out. This whole shingding started when i went back on my injectons. I had that 1st week of exhaustion but then last week was good. Then sunday the day after I started my shots things started getting ****** again.

but I'm not sure what other options I have. I do want to continue to transition but these uncontrollable mood swings and anxiety are the worst. And it did happen after my hystrectomy and I was told my moods were supposed to be more stable since I wasnt going to have the female hormones anymore.

I got some of my ususal melatonin since I was out of it. My brothers gummy melatonin causes increase hunger. The stuff I usually get and only the liguid benadryl capsules do not make me hungry.