Sailing through day 4. I miss binging. But I'm not having the urge to binge. When I think about food, there is fear, and tension, but the thoughts are not obsessive. This new understanding that restrictive thoughts lead to the binges is eye opening. "Riding the waves" of the cravings. I'm still scared of food. Scared, and also, like I've lost a loved one. But, I'm doing it.