Isabel here. Protecting as usual. There, that's my coping skill!

I went for a drive and I took a nap. I think next I will go to bed early.

I did ok today until

Overall I did ok. My mom went for a walk but after going nonstop Thanksgiving, Friday and yesterday, I was perfectly fine crashing in front of my TV all day doing laundry and not paying attention to anything thats going on.

I coped today by being snarky and sleeping.

I just wore the same one. No one said anything and I was able to keep it clean. I took it off at night and washed it when I got home.

Ever since I restarted the testosterone I've been kind of crabby. Today I have mainly just been cold and very tired and worn out. My mental health for the most part has been decent. My body just needs to get readjusted to things. My mom has been real *****y towards me all day but super nice towards my brother. Like this day is hard for all of us but shes being really senstive with him but taking her frustation out on me.

Listening to Audible and music.

I've been tired due to sleep issues these past 2 nights and also probably hormone issues as well. I was crabby for a lot of the day and I almost lost it on the T Mobil guy because I had expensive stuff with me that I was uncomfortable carrying around in public and his attiude was pretty much "fix it yourself" right now I seem to have calmed down even though all I did was eat some healthy protein. I just want to be stable. I know when my dose was being switched from biweekly to weekly last year at this time my doctor said I wouldnt notice a change for 6 weeks. So maybe this is similar and it will just take time to be stable again. I have therapy in the morning and I'm not digging these very early sessions. But last week was an afternoon session and by then I was too anxious to go in person and I had to do a remote session. Which was crazy that I did a remote session by choice. I never thought I'd willing do one again. But with this new variant I'm not sure what will end up happening with therapy. Maybe we will all go back to remote sessions.

I'm not coping today. I've been extremely upset about my PT appointment, so I rescheduled it. I am afraid to find a mailbox. I can't shower. I'm pretty worthless.