I think I'm asexual. Or I'm a derivative thereof. Mine has a lot to do with both choice and my mental disabilities that affect my libido. But my choice and preference is to have a mate without the actual sex. I know that my past sexual abuse has a lot to do with my choice, but there are many controversial arguments about who fits within the "asexual" group and who doesn't, so I felt like I never really fit in anywhere then. Loneliness is an understatement for me. But I'm glad you created this thread. I think there are others here that identify as asexual, too.