Dean will not care about some boyfriend writing about your negative qualities. Who cares.

You assigned too much power to this guy over the course of your relationship and now it’s time to take it back. If you intend to become a doctor, it’s paramount that you work on independent thinking skills and decision making skills. You have to be able to make your own decisions and think for yourself. You allowed this dude to make decisions for you and think for you, but now it’s time to stop. Stay strong. Don’t try to outsmart this guy. Just move on from him. Leave him in the past