The more time goes on the more I feel sorry... Remorse? Not in a self loathing kind of a way, just in a "I'm really sorry" kind of way. I'm sorry that I made it all about me, even after you had said you couldn't work anymore. I'm sorry I didn't show you more empathy, more understanding, more consideration. I really hope that you can see that this was because a) I didn't know what was going on for you and b) the relationship we had at the time was such that it was never my role to put you before me. I stayed in that role, but the more time goes on the more I move away from that, the more I can see how hard that time must have been for you, and the more sorry I get that I didn't find it easier. I guess it's only understandable, but it doesn't mean I can't be sorry at the same time.

I don't know if that makes any sense. I hope it does.

I love you.