So I didn't take any topamax today. And I didnt take any vistril. And my hunger was fine all day. So idk why the topamax backfired like that and increased my hunger instead. I know those gummy melatoins can sometimes suck too for hunger. My anxiety is a bit tough right now but I havent taken my usual geodon yet. I took my sleep meds already. I ate a purple mashed sweet potato for dinner that looked like dark purple playdough.

I have some song stuck in my head but all I can think of is the words "we're in the navy." I thought it was maybe an old war song from the 40's but my mom said the only thing she can think of is some song from The Villiage People.

My therapist thinks showering every other day is gross. Maybe for her because shes so obese. Seriously shes my age and its just so unhealthy to be that overweight when your not even 30. My transference T called me fat phobic. I dont know if she was telling me I have a fear of gaining weight or a fear of fat people or she was just telling
me that I'm an asshole. I dont know. I know the show my 600 pound life makes me want to barf when its on. I had on it on at the hotel for an hour a couple weeks ago thinking the season premire of a show I kinda am kinda not was going to be on but it was on the other night.

I'm trying to get my mom to take my morbidly obese brother to the doctor for a physical and labs. He hasnt gone in years. I told her if he has a heart attack and dies they are going to ask her why he never went to the doctors for his annual physical and my mom could get into legal trouble.