What's good about triggering? It makes me depressed & do SI. And lately I'm learning that it might make other parts front and do things I'm not aware of. Somehow I just need to stop triggering!

When I used to talk to the voices, Cayla once told me that in inner world I'm 10 yo and she's 9. That's so confusing. Can the host be a different age than the body? If that's true then why do some of the parts call me an adult? Feel like I'm getting the worst part of the deal. They use the body whenever and for the most part do not want to interact with me.

Ever so often I have vivid memories that look and feel so real like they're real life memories but have no idea if they're inner world memories. They're not outer world memories.