I wonder... I don't think that you need me in your life. Do you want me in your life? I would love to know the answer to that question. As long as it's the answer that I want to hear??

There are people in my life who I would rather were not. I feel stuck with them. Is that how you feel about me? Would you rather I just leave you alone? Would you miss me if I never spoke to you again?

But you said the words "I love you". You said the words "you are a beautiful child" you said the words "I am just over here".

No wonder I'm feeling confused!!

Oh T, the only way I can look at it is that we are just learning a new dance. It's awkward. It's unsure. I feel self conscious. Maybe you do too?

I'm no fool. I know you will never need or want me in your life in the same way as I need or want you in mine, but I do feel there is something there, I have to believe that there is something there...