Seems to me they must be normal for some of us. L told me something similar after the first one we had in the beginning of year 2, where I'd hung up on her during a phone session. What I remember her saying when I finally got up the nerve to call her and apologize, is that this is a relationship, and it's damaged, but not broken. And like other relationships, it can be healed. In my head at the time, I didn't quite understand that - I had things like this swirling around in my head: you mean you don't hate me now? You won't hold a grudge forever because I hung up on you? You mean it's not the end of the world that I was rude?