I'm depressed to the point I'm no longer taking my meds. It started accidentally but it's day three and I'm having withdrawals but to scared to take it. I want to be thin again. I want Anna around. I'm lonely but withdrawn. I want to physically hurt. I know I have to take them. I need to be stable but I don't want to. I'm sure cold turkey off these meds are a horrible idea. But maybe because I'm in pain I don't care. I haven't even called to see if I have a new therapist since my last one quit. I'm taking it personal because I know I'm a difficult client. I'm having the maybe I'll be lucky and not wake. I'm safe though I spent to much money on myself to not use the things I bought.

Eta: took my meds and had to give them to h to control mismanagement