I slept in a long time this morning. I assume it was med related because I havent taken the visrtril in a few days. My weight went up a few oz. But I'm not suprisied with all the iced tea and the vistril sucks too for weight. Today I feel a bit down about my therapy situation last year at this time and not having any support from my therapist because of IOP. I had a session scheduled on the 22 last year which got cancelled and it would have really helped me. Also my current therapy situation is getting to me as well. But I don't think I have any other options at this point. I go for bloodwork in the morning and I'm sure thats making me nervous. I hope the results are ok unlike last time. I feel like something isn't right and I am often right but I just don't know what. My mom says I know my body well.

I'm also behind again on my valium and I took the first one a couple hours later then usual. I try to stay on track with all my meds but especially my valium.

I took my valium and the anxiety is still there. Maybe I should just say F it again and take the Vistril. I cant eat as it is and I said last night that if a cheat day would help I'd do it. But I'm just not hungry. I had a corn tamale and a Lindt truffle and that was it and its getting kind of late. Its past lunch.