The restaurant owners son really bothered me at work today. This happens every time he comes in an hour before I leave.

He asks me "How's life?" and I said "It's alright" and then laughed at me. He asks me what I do like if I go skiing and I said I go 2x a week. I felt the need to explain that it isn't all I do extrovertedly - But I'm an introvert so what am I really going to tell him? I said that I don't like the winter cuz it's cold can't go hiking or mountain biking.

His sister gave me a cold drink and he said "He doesn't like the cold" and they laughed - So I said "Yes but I like this drink" and he laughed again.

I don't just not like the cold. Sometimes I have cold showers, I like snow - I like fresh air. It's like my mind is made up of nonsense when people try to talk to me.

He asked "How's your gf?" and I said "I don't have one" so he asked "How's your bf" and I said that I'm not gay. I'm don't think of myself as just gay because my sexuality is complicated.

Mental illness was what I was dealing with in high school and all I remember from that time was an idiot telling everyone I'm gay. That's all they cared about. I wasn't even aware of my sexuality because I was dealing with much more severe things.

I explained bisexuality and asexuality to someone on a video chat and he said that I'm asexual because my mom is a "*****" cuz she cheated on my dad. I don't even have a problem with promiscuity - He obviously did. He told me to call him "Dad" - I already have a dad?

It was at the time I said that she was going through breast cancer. He told me to buy a dog and everyone was like "Yeah buy a dog" - But I have a cat? Do people just not think I have any emotion or I'm cynical?

He said that I don't make facial expressions (Isn't that an autism/schizophrenia thing?) and after I said that I doubted my diagnosis, he said that I should stop my meds and I'll never get out of the psychiatric system. He said that I should play a sport - So he made me listen to this person talking about flying disks. He said that I would end up as a serial killer or turn to religion.

It's like I'm a huge joke to people in real life and that people see me much differently than to how I see myself. My family and close friends are the only people that actually know me. What am I supposed to say? "Once you get passed the mystery about me, you'll realize that I'm not a joke for you to hate".

It's the same thing at previous places that I worked at. I'm always told to smile so I did - And then I seem like an idiot.

I talked to two soldiers before and I said "Brb I need to go for a piss" and they were like "Finally you said something human".

What does this all mean? I don't know why people do this to me. My mind tortures itself enough already every day.