My husband has control of my meds so I don't mismanage them, or throw them out. It's not like I'm feeling the most stable now but it does work. I just feel done. I've been at this over 15 years. I want to just lay low. I know in reality I've only recently received "proper" medication for a couple of months. Maybe this is part of me being unstable? I don't know and it's not like a new t can help me because they don't know me.