Today I was on the sales floor, and it was very nice. I wish I wasn't as grumpy with people when I'm on the register. I just can't stand cashiering anymore. Today I thought about smoking all day long. I quit for a week but broke down and smoked all day yesterday, then today no cigarettes. I'm severely depressed and have suicidal thoughts because of it plus because of the fire plus the loss of a friendship and everything that goes with it...I'm losing hope on a lot of things.