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Originally Posted by BigBubba
I spent so much time trying to fix myself, theraphy after theraphy.. and now I have all my problems and past figured out and I'm still antisocial douchebag.
Goals over people. Power over love and friendship. Surrounding myself with useful people who mean nothing to me once they stop being useful. My head wrapped around power and admiration and being NO. 1. Rules and law mean nothing. I cant go through single day without lies and manipulation. Regrets hit only when I get caught.
And I like it. My 3rd theraphy is over and its not much more I can do about my problems and traumas. I'm a narc with strong sociopathic traits and I'm gonna die alone. Even though I really want to be the good guy. Its crazy. I guess some people are just bad and thats it. Thanks for reading.
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I feel similar about having all my problems figured out but still being f'd up. I think we're just constantly fed a lie that therapy will somehow cure us or at least change our ways but not from my experience it just helped me cope with my crap but it all still exists.
I think therapy is worth it for the self-reflection but I wish they would stop putting it on a pedestal and admit it loud and proud that we'll all still have symptoms afterward. We just need to accept ourselves as we are after therapy and try not to hurt others or ourselves.
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I have BPD or Autism or both, we may never know, the focus is always the symptoms, not the diagnosis
