I wish I could go to work. I need a distraction from the **** in my head.

Seeing SI images all day. Feelings where I used to SH and only don’t anymore bc I got tattoos to cover the scars on my forearms. And also to stop myself from harming on them so I guess it’s working.

I tried to take my son to be tested but I waited until he was done with virtual school and by then they had closed walk in testing. He really wanted to go to the dollar store so I took him even though I really didn’t feel like I could. I did though. I also stopped and got eggs. I’m thinking of ordering grocery delivery since we’re out of a lot of things and I can’t face going to the store. I might be able to make it through the small discount grocery store though. They don’t have everything but they have enough.