Yes, I can fully relate to your pain, friend, your depression. 😔 Because I've totally been there too.

In my case of getting out of bed in the late afternoons, I'd still go for my walks, which became night walks. But I wouldn't expect a lady to be very enthusiastic about doing that. But I was so lost and worried for my future, just like you. I can relate Mimi. 😔🙏 I just kept trying to let go, let go, let go, of thoughts I felt might undermine me further, and stick to my path, but obviously that's an almost continuous process and I wasn't terribly successful at it back then. Understandably so.

Mimi, I can't suggest things to you that haven't helped me, so I want you to endure this difficult journey. Just find pleasure or smiles in little things, it could be anything really, (yes, coffee!) be nice to the animals and insects, and keep trying to go up the hill psychologically in whatever ways you deem fit, and eventually you may find yourself coming out of the dark tunnel.

You have my full support and no judgement whatsoever. 🙏🙏🙏