New T,

Well, I didn't expect to go there today. What made you so that question at that time I wonder. What made you think I was ready for that? I'm glad I told you not to go there for the other bit though, and glad I felt I could say stop when I did
My head was really hurting. I realised recently that when I think of these things, when I go back to the past, I clench my teeth right down. I clench so hard that it gives me a headache, alongside other reasons probably. I'm learning to notice and to try and relax but that's near on impossible in the moment, only after is it easier.