I woke up this morning after a kind of tough night med wise. I saw that the kitchen was a mess and I felt bad because my mom was so tired last night. So I cleaned up and washed the dishes and took out the garbage and the recycling. I had not really planned on leaving my house besides to get an iced tea but then I decided to make my international grocery store run. Getting out made me feel better. I also took my first valium at the correct time. I got some cool stuff and I got a couple gift cards for my sister and brother in law. Now I just need my mom and my brothers presents which I'll get tomorrow. But I feel pretty good today. My therapy appointment got moved to virtual and I was hoping she'd just cancel. She did give me that option but I want to show her that I'm trying. Plus I remember how lonely it felt being without a therapist last christmas and I dont want to repeat that this year. I'm wondering what kind of tomfoolery word vomit she'll say tommrow. At least its still an AM appointment.

I saw something on facebook that kinda creeped me out and sort of lit a fire under my *** even though my mom says it wont happen to me because shes taking care of everything. But I looked on indeed last night to see if the job position I want at the store I want to work for is hiring. They are. I plan on applying first thing next year. My therapist says this is a very friendly place to work for and I have seen trans employees there before.