It's almost time for those 30 days to be up that I told IOP T that I wouldn't self harm, and I haven't. I've done really good through some pretty big sized urges, and lots of little ones. I feel proud of how far I have come. I know it can all come crashing down in a minute, but I just hold onto hope that as I am growing and changing I am becoming stronger. I feel really good. I have felt really good for a couple of weeks. Maybe it is the new medication. I don't know. But things are looking up. Hang in there, my friends. We can get through this together.