It is interesting this conversation is going on with multiple people. My last session went south for me and I feel like it was my therapist who lost her cool over me not wanting to share certain things with her.
I personally feel like therapists have a power trip because the dynamic of the treatment plans, in my opinion, puts the therapist in an authoritarian role while the patient has to do whatever is written down on the plan and if you don't follow the plan exactly we're seen as defiant, resistant, difficult, non-compliant, etc.
I plan to speak with my therapist this week about this dynamic because for me I'm an adult and I put in a ton of effort into therapy and if she thinks I'm wasting her time by not sharing certain things then she's not a good fit for me. I've been in therapy for 8 years now I'm not about to have someone treat me like I have no autonomy in my own treatment, no matter what she thinks she knows, she doesn't know me better than I know myself.
I'm not even angry I'm used to this type of crap from therapists and I'm not putting up with it anymore because I'm confident in the accomplishments I've made I don't need someone to micromanage my life. I went to therapy for one reason... employment and that's the only thing I need help from a therapist to work on.
I doubt it will go well I'm sure she'll fire me and that reflects more on her than me in my opinion. I think if you say anything opposing to a therapist they will get butthurt and blame the patient it's the only dynamic I've ever seen in therapy. That's why I'm a firm believer that therapy is only beneficial for that initial hump of a person hurting themselves or others once that ceases to exist for a patient the therapy dynamic isn't conducive but it could be if the therapist lets go of their ego. And I wish the dynamic could be different and I advocate for it on my social media accounts probably pissing off therapists left and right lol
I think we'd all see a much better improvement in our lives if the therapists allowed us to have our own autonomy when were not hurting others or ourselves.
Sorry, I don't have anything but to vent right along with you. I don't recommend doing what I do unless you want to risk getting fired as a patient because it's likely to happen. They say "well I can't help you if you don't want to work on the goals" the goals they made up for you but gaslight you to believe that you collaborated on them.
My therapist put way more goals on my treatment plan than I wanted and I told her that she is creating problems that don't exist and she is only willing to treat me if I have a thousand problems.
Edited to add:
I forgot to mention I do like my therapist as a person so this was pretty disappointing because I felt like she was one of the more real down to earth therapists I met but it did not sit well with me that me not wanting her help with something pissed her off.
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