Sorry to hear that, going through the same but I only had 7 years. I've been through it before at 10 years and can say you will make through, right now is the toughest. I can't make it through a day without crying myself and I have so many emotions. Trying to accept it currently but it's hard, I keep holding out hope although I know in my head it know over. Hang in there and know you have support.