I'm trying to remember what my therapist said today about just accepting things with my transfernce therapist. We spent almost the whole session today talking about how I still have so many strong feelings for her when its been almost 10 months since we ended things. I've been eating so many Lindt peppermint truffles today because at this point I'm not sure how else to deal with these feelings besides eating a flavor that reminds me of her. I mentioned peppermint today and my therapist laughed and said "you and your peppermint." Thats when I finally admitted it was more of an OCD type thing because of the association I have with the flavor and the transference T. I kept asking my current therapist when will it get better and she says when I accept it.

Yeah I just checked facebook and the first time I had a mint candy bar was January 2020. So yeah thats when things were starting to happen with covid. I think that also could have been when I was really sick most likely with covid. And that was when I was starting to get needy with her so I guess thats how that flavor came to be associated with her.