I had two counseling sessions yesterday, they seemed to help for the short term but it also got me thinking I'm other areas which maybe things I need to deal with. I was also left with a greater sense of hope that she may change her mind. I don't want this, the sooner I can accept the sooner I can move on. I was living the happily ever after marriage until two months ago but what I didn't know is she was not. In the past 4 years after our weekend breakup I can't remember her ever saying she was unhappy. I can't stop trying to figure it out and I know I will never know for sure. I'm the past month all I have reveived are one sentence explanations. "I'm just not happy" " you are a good husband I don't know why I can't be happy" "I'm still hung up on what happened in the past" " I don't know how to explain it". I told her while she was giving me space that I'll even take a text if she knows it is over I just need to know if that time comes. Well that is how she ended 7 years, she didn't want to I talk because she was going to bed so her text was "it's over, I'm sorry". I don't know who this cold person is but it isn't my wife. Now I'm starting to think about some diet pills she was taking that can have side effects of she suddenly stops. That's about as logical explanation I can make for a dlaudden mood change two months ago. I know I'm grasping but i can't move on without knowing more. How can I prevent it in the future with any new relationship if I don't know? Will I always be looking over my shoulder wondering will she leave me anyday? Hopefully therapy will help me work through these issues and time.
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