I can see the decorations up at various places and they look nice. But I'm not in the holiday spirit. I think I never will be. Now I have some anxiety because I have a Dermatology appointment next Monday morning. Lately I've noticed that there's a small bump on my face. I can't get a real good look at it from where it's located. So I'm worried about it. Or there may be something else that's wrong.

I also feel unmotivated to try and change things for better and I really need to. I especially need to research and plan to line up another place to live because I can't afford to stay at where I am much longer. I don't know where to go or how to execute a plan to move. The area where I am is hopeless as far as being able to find something affordable. Plus there isn't a good reason why I should stay. If I left, I feel that I wouldn't leave much behind except for great weather.