The problem is I don't recognize depression. It just is what it is and that's how life is. It's very possible I'm going through a mood swing. I'm thinking a slow decent doesn't feel as justified as a complete explotion of my life.this functional but still not okay is getting to me.

Yes my brain off meds is harsh but I feel like that at least I could handle. Not with good coping methods but they we my methods. I can't really voice this because everyone is scared to work with me off meds.
Thank you guys.