Him/Her

As I sit and reminisce
my past to my presence
As a child
oh how many times I cried myself to sleep
and still I cry myself to sleep
The fear as a child
deep within my soul has been filed
The fear as an adult
not much has changed
only the sexes

The smell of Alcohol
The sound of the screams
God I wish they were only a dream
So many relationships and I had to fall for one
Who happens to be just like her
When I see him I see her
When I see her I see him
it is not within my soul
to be that savage lady I grew up with
So I had to settle for this savage man
It is a shame
all that I knew I never wanted in my life
I wanted change
I wanted a little bit of peace
happiness for my children
Instead
I Stuck them with that man
that was just like her