I don't know if this belongs here or in the Psychotherapy section, but I will just post it here.

Perhaps I should just ask this new therapist I have been seeing for a recommendation. Or maybe come up with my own treatment goals, and if the new therapist doesn't think they can help then move on. I'm not sure. I am not really sure what I am feeling. A mix of emotions surely. I am really missing my old therapist in my hometown.

She was really amazing, and I finally started to feel like I was getting some healing with someone who really listened to me and understood me. I am convinced now that the healing work is never quite done, but can reach a lot of healing over time. That maybe, for me at least, the journey of healing is the point.

I just...do you ever feel like you are the one educating your therapist about CPTSD? I really believe Pete Walker's books should be required reading for every mental health professional. Along with The Body Keeps the Score. They should be read, studied, and understood in my opinion...for whatever that's worth.

It really sucks to walk out of a session feeling like the therapist doesn't really understand your suffering. They mean well, but they may not be as well informed as they think. That now I have to take my copies of The Body Keeps the Score and Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving to every session and educate them in what is going on with me so they can hopefully help me in my recovery journey.

They are the ones who are supposed to be trained and "trauma informed", but I feel like they just don't get it even though they claim to be "trauma informed". Admittedly, even my great former therapist didn't get some things until I shared some books with her. She was just really awesome and really listened to me instead of jumping straight to medication or whatever else. It really feels even more isolating and lonely when even the trauma informed professionals don't know how to help you.

Today really sucked.