...and maybe I am being to hard on the new t. I will get my treatment goals together etc. Then I will interview them, and if it's not a good fit I will move on.

It's just...it breaks my heart to not know if I am fawning right now or not (probably a little). Like I don't have a right to be upset and sick and tired of being sick and tired. Like I can't walk into a session and vent without feeling guilty just trying to avoid getting in trouble or being abandoned. I mean if not in therapy where else?

(Sigh)...