I miss you. Our connection is so significant for me that it is painful to consider it. It's bittersweet to hear you talk about this being significant for you too. The inevitable loss of this relationship threatens to be more painful because of the something-like-loving which we both feel. It's easier when we are gritty with each other. I need to get back to hostile business as usual next week to steel myself for your utterly unacceptable Christmas break.