I'm kind of anxious today. But my zofran is in and I'm picking it up now so hopefully it helps with my physical symptoms. I ate a couple pacakges of Indian flavors of Lays chips last night. They were spicy but not unbearable. But around 2AM I woke up coughing because I had thrown up in my mouth. I tried just coughing things out but it was pretty painful. So I got some water and my throat was still hurting so I took a cepcaol. But then I was able to get back to sleep for a couple more hours.

I went to get something from my storage rack in the garage and I saw a mouse scurrying along the middle shelf. I said "nope" and closed the door. So I'll be moving the entire storage rack to my room because I will not go into the garage if there are mice in there. My mom saw it and said it wasnt that big but she kept jumping back because it kept getting closer to her and she didn't want it to jump at her.

But today my anxiety is slightly crappy but I think my stomach is upset from the chips.

Edit: I took a zofran with a valium and it was like magic. I always remembred zofran working really well for physical symptoms that then also made anxiety really bad. I actually feel a bit euphroic right now because I havent felt this great in a long time. But my trans doctor wants me to talk to my primary because he says nausea is not normal and Zofran is not something he typically prescribes. But he gave me 30 with no refill so I can get through Christmas.

I got my storage rack moved and I have a lot less food then I thought. Which is good because I was worried I was hoarding a bit. But my food just seems like a normal amount for the type of stuff I eat. I have a lot of rice cakes but I can sometimes go through 2 bags a week.

I drank 2 sodas I got from the indian market. One had no date but was totally flat. The other expired in May but still tasted ok. I like this place, they have cool stuff but I think its agasint the law to be selling expired products. I hope the stuff I ordred online from canada and england is ok.

During the summer my moms friend gave me this 3 layer melatoinin which worked great. The first layer is calming. The second layer is fast acting and the 3rd layer helps you stay asleep longer. It worked pretty good but I ran out of it. I've been using benadryl which has been a mess on my weight. So my mom found the melatoinin at Walgreens. $22 for 60 tablets. No wonder it works so well.