I am soooo hopeless. I used to be attractive but now I am 48, all alone, no friends even, no job, no money, old and fat at 200 lbs. I have no life whatsoever. So sad that my best days are gone. I really want a good relationship so badly because I have only been with awful abusers but now I feel too ugly and unworthy for any guy to like me now. I feel absolutely hideous in my body with my ugly skin with stretch marks, scars, and sagging skin. Geez, I can go on for pages and pages about all my flaws.

I see only a bleak miserable future.