Serenity... thanks for the response. I'd PM you but, have other things going right now. Perhaps another time, you sound like you have a lot of wisdom.

Like you, I have my trust issues. And that is one thing that I really resent over all of this... that I lost my ability to trust myself. I now look over my shoulder constantly.

The date was pretty symbolic. We were officially divorced on April 15... very symbolic for us. He's not financially responsible, I ended up taking the brunt for some back taxes that we owed LOL. Long story there, but I could have worked with him with finances. I'm not a miser, but I did learn a lot of accouting and stuff over the years and when I questioned things in the money department, he always blew a gasket!

My life too revolved around being mom... even though I worked. I loved raising our girls, and he now knows he can get back at me by pointing out problems or mistakes in that area.

I need to go, but just wanted to let you know I got your message since I was still on line. I am actually working right now... and the stress of the extra hours isn't helping me a lot right now. But, the need is real... I have deadlines and the more hours I can bill out to a client, the bigger bonuses I get at the end of the year. And it's looking like I'm going to have to work my butt off for a bit to make sure I can make ends meet!