Something about this feels deeply uncomfortable. I wish I hadn't asked and I wish you hadn't said yes. I feel exposed. I don't think you met me today and I don't think you realised how hard it was to articulate those hidden fears. Sometimes you really open up to my bravery, this wasn't one of those times. And now I have a three weeks break. This feels awkward and itchy. I hope it passes and I feel something different in time. I had wanted us to end with ease and warmth which was an unrealistic want because ease and warmth are not words associated with me.