I've been up since 9:30 last night. I was just trying to control my hunger and I ended up falling asleep too early at 5 and waking up at 9:30. Then I had a good amount of caffeine. I'm not moody from lack of sleep or anxious from all the caffeine. But I am sad for some reason. I had another good therapy session. I'm glad someone is finally getting my transference T out of my head. Today was the first time I did not bring her up. I did make a stupid comment about christmas at this time last year which I think confused my therapist. But I am just very tired and kinda sad but just not sure why on that last part. Its not therapy related so I assume I'm just sleep deprived and its making me a bit emotional in general.

I think this tornado situation has me a bit worn down. That picture of the 3 girls right before the tornado hit and killed one of them is just heartbreaking. I am very nervous since a tornado could decimate my area very easily and things are just getting worse with global warming.

Today would be a vistril type day if I had it. Even if it caused me to eat an entire thing of baked brie or something. I'd take that chance for some relief. But at least therapy helped.

I'm trying to decide what to eat but I cant get the energy to grab a snack let alone make a meal. I'm smelling something again and I cant tell if its legit or phantom but my right nostril hurts where the smell is the strongest. I'm not nauseated at the moment.

Beth, I do know theres no magic pill for anxiety but a valium and zofran combo comes pretty darn close. Does your pdoc not do benzos either?