I'm pretty sure it was just the lack of sleep and then the massive caffeine I had trying to control it so I wouldnt get tired and crabby. I dont think there is anything actually wrong with my mental health. My visible moods were fine all day. I think my pysical health is ok too. Or at least decent. Although I was borderline shaking waiting for my therapist because I was so cold and I asked her if she had a blanket. Some do actually have them. She didnt laugh or make a joke. She made a face that was a combination of confused and concerned. Then said no she didnt. My hair is still falling out and I forgot to ask my doctor last week about it but I'll ask my primary when I see him in January. Its weird for me to get that cold in public but I feel perfectly fine physically. So idk. I never got what my mom had.

The weather gave me the creeps all day but I think its ok now. I shut my blinds after awhile because it looked like it was getting dark at 1PM. My therapist said I wasnt stressing about covid today. I didnt mention it at all. I am just concerned about other things.