My anxiety is absoloutly out of control today. I didnt get coffee or an iced tea or anything. I've already taken all 3 of my valium. I kept my empty bottle of vistril for this excat moment and I looked at it and I could have gotten it refilled yesterday. So my mom is going to get it for me. I don't know why I'm so anxious but I've been up since 12:30. I went to bed at 6 and I thought I was safe going to bed at that time after being up since 9:30 Tuesday night. I wish I knew what was wrong. I heard on the news this morning they expect covid to get so bad starting the week after christmas and are expecting 15 thousand deaths a week. But my issues started a few days ago and I havent been stressing about covid for awhile. I had planned on applying to jobs starting in january but now with this new CDC stuff I'm not sure going back to work right now is a good idea. Especially since working for me at this time is not a life or death situation. My mom (my aunt said at Thanksgiving as well) that I shouldnt go back to work if a ton of people are dropping like flys every day from covid.

And this isnt to scare anyone this is legit breaking news overnight coming from the CDC.

But hopefully it was the benadryl increasing my hunger and not the vistril so I can contiune that so I can somewhat get this anxiety under control or ideally completly under control.

I know I've been told sometimes we're just anxious for no resdon but this seems kinda ridicoulous.

Edit: I'm still at a loss. My double valium didnt work. My palms are so sweaty I am anxious out of my mind. My mom is still out. She texted me and got some zero sugar caffeine free soda for me. I had an Atkins shake thinking that would help. I've also had 2 greek yogurts. So I've had a lot of protein. Maybe I need carbs next. I hope the vistril works. One of my pdocs said I could take 3 at one time and I was on 50mil at that time. This dose is 25mil twice a day. So I guess its ok to take a fair amount of it. This is really my only option I have no clue where theres an IP place around here to go for an assement and the ERs are jam packed with covid patients. I could possibly take a geodon early instead of all at night.