You know I understand what makes some people want to sleep with lots of people. When I was younger I thought sex with lots of people would take away the empty thing in my heart but what I failed to realize was I wanted true connection. And to my young teenage brain I thought sex was true connection. All I ever wanted was a true male friend. I want a true male guide because I never had a good man there to guide me. And we say we don't need a dad but we do and maybe I am just a girl with daddy issues but that's truly how I felt. I sometimes still feel that way lost and maybe this should be a poem. It's true though.