Do you know, I actually love that you will open the gifts on Christmas Day. I'll certainly be thinking of you and now I know you will spend some time thinking of me too. What a crazy crazy relationship this was/is. Crazy! I am good, now, you know. I feel like I have come out of the washing machine of emotions I was in earlier in the year. I feel like I am hanging out to dry and just admiring the world around me. My only challenge now (apart from doing 'the work' with someone) is learning how NOT to spend so much time thinking about you. And I'm afraid that the answer might be to walk away from you. I'm not sure I'm ready, but I am at least considering the option, and feeling like it might be the best way forwards, at least for a little while. I'm not sure it's good for me that you are the first thing I think about every morning, the last thing I think about every night, and that my mind thinks of you often throughout the day too. But how... I guess time, and distance, and finding new things to focus on (though the last thing at night one, that's probably the hardest, as you have been the last thing I think about at night for the last 5 and a half years!)