No I suppose I'm ok with phenibut.

I need an antidepressant. But none of them are good.

I want to go to a rave/festival. It doesn't have to be molly fun yknow.. But idk.. I've never been to one before. I have no friends to go with.

I wish I was manic. A high school friend wanted me to drink alcohol because I was = quiet kid. Extremely quiet.. Just sitting there.. thinking.. All day. He looked at my math test results and was like "See he's smart", quiet doesn't mean stupid though...

But I was stupid once I discovered research chemicals. It was a few years of madness. Now I read the book by neuropsychopharmacologist, "Alexander Shulgin". I find it hard to not procrastinate. It's the main reason as to why I use drugs - Cuz I try to find meaning out of suffering and stagnant lifeless mindlessness.