I keep getting flashbacks. One was when I got a remark from this one brother of mine that our living room rug looked so dirty, like being treated like dirty you know. I've never forgotten it. ever. I don't think I ever will. I got other flashbacks too. I often have flashbacks in my dreams too. It has reminded me of some ****** part of my adult life. I wish I could just erase it all. What's the use of remembering things like this when the pain just won't go away? seeing mother with the shampooer today was a real trigger for me. sorry to say.