Thank you. I have been touched by any response at all. That's how sad I have felt about life. Thanks for touching on that topic for I have at times hated myself with a strong venom like you wouldn't believe. I see little hope in my life at all. God is not smiling for me. I just know he's not. I think he feels very sorry for me. I can't believe mother didn't give me away to someone better equipped to deal with my developmental problems. laughs.