I AM making progress, and it doesnt feel too scary to say that.

I have been having a lot of good happy dreams lately. I dreamt my best friend threw me a birthday party (not something i usually go for, but it was pretty cool, there were a stackload of comedians there!). Ive been having work dreams, but not nightmares - i am participating and being listened to, unlike how it was IRL and in dreams since. I wake up feeling accomplished.

Matt and Dr whoever would still die if they saw my house, but it is starting to feel possible.