Dear T,
I did really appreciate your response, including the self-reflection involved. I wish I was talking to you tomorrow though--really stressed about Covid and stuff. Though I suppose it's better that we're talking Thursday instead because it's less time between that and Tuesday's session. I do hope you'll have figured out what you are or are not willing to share regarding your vacation. I realized that it would have been better if you'd just said "I'm not really comfortable sharing any information"--it was the silence that was difficult for me, as I was just sort of rambling and throwing out questions, hoping you would give me *something*. I just worry about you and want you to be safe.

But I also wonder if it's easier for me to be outwardly worried about you? Rather than about my D (we are keeping her home tomorrow), myself, H, my parents, H's mom... Like am I projecting those fears onto you? Though you've also been a huge source of support for me over the past--what, 21 months now? (Ugh.) So I think it's natural that I'd fear you going away, whether briefly due to illness or longer-term, like from long Covid, or worse.... Plus, I mean, I love you, of course, platonically, but still.
Love,
LT