This is interesting to me because I probably am engulfed in a life where I can't really get away from depression but even before these factors existed I would always go back to feeling this way- regardless of what was happening around me. I have the kind of negative situations that can't be changed so how I deal with them means everything and I guess this is the entire problem. Being good at going through the motions of trying to change my thinking but not really believing in what I'm doing inside. Feels like an act. Starting to think it is genetic.