hi musicnmoods... im sorry to hear your situation is one which seems to surround you, never letting go... i think you have a good plan in adjusting the way you view your situation.. sometimes that really isnt all that needs to be done... i hope we here more of how you are continuing to cope and rise up to an attainable level of happiness, i believe we all can find happiness, even tho it is an incredible amount of work sometimes... its taken me nearly 30 years to overcome depression and there are still days when im down... somethings in our world seem destined to always be there and their presence is somewhat depressing, but if anything good can be gained from being under the weight, it is our ability to find a light thru the darkness for ourselves and in so doing, light and guide the way for others who may follow.. we all matter... your story is one we can read and be inspired by, you can educate us how you do manage it day by day, it seems there is always another out there needing to hear our words as we struggle on, someone who is on an even darker place and just needs a hand to get out of their own deep hole... thank you for sharing and helping those in need today...