I wish that...

1. My therapist would choose to move to a different state that I want to move to because I can't stand living in this state anymore.
2. My therapist wouldn't retire for another 3 to 5 years.
3. That my therapist would learn and understand racial traumas more.
4. That my therapist would understand my immunocompromising and high-risk conditions more.
5. That this pandemic were over so that I could see my therapist in person again.
6. That my therapist remains healthy and safe from any pathogen, virus, disease, etc.
7. That I could find some epiphany or breakthrough in therapy with my current therapist.

I really like my therapist, and she's the best I've had out of all the therapists I've had. I just worry a lot these days. There's not much that I wish for, but I wish for the impossible. This pandemic isn't going to end, my therapist is likely to retire soon, and my therapist is unlikely to move to a different state. If and when I move, I won't be able to see her online anymore, as this state doesn't allow therapists to cross state lines for online therapy.