So I never got my injection. I cancelled the holidays and will just sleep 😴 instead. I hate feeling this way but don't want to do anything about it. I know I should go get my shot but that involves taking a 🚿 which I really need to do but I don't have the motivation. I didn't even go to my sister's birthday and I'm not going to a close family gender reveal. They even offered for Christmas here so I would not have to leave the house and I said no. I haven't colored in weeks. It just sucks. I'm not doing much all day. I'm scrolling through the phone. Getting into arguments online. Nothing helpful. I no longer know if I'm staying away from my treatment team for fear of hospitalization or embarrassment is what's driving me to not get the shot.