Hi,
I've read others' posts here for some time, but this is my first time posting. I struggle primarily with depression and anxiety for the past 10 years, but I've made some incredible progress esp. thanks to my incredible therapist. We really work well together and she has been a big support in my life.

I've made some big changes this year in order to stay healthy, but it's been hard and I'm still seeking stability and support. I am at my third job this year, I left my church of 5 years because I didn't feel safe with COVID, my relationship with my family has become increasingly strained and they are no longer a support. I do have a small group and I'm working on finding a new church, but it is a process.

Tuesday, my therapist told me, as of January, she is taking a three month break for her own mental health. It was a huge shock; we have never been apart more than 2 weeks in these 10 years. I will be working with her colleague, who I've seen before. She is okay, but it's definitely not the same. I want my T to feel well enough to work, but my heart is broken. I'm terrified of going 3 months without her, esp. since I'm not in a great place myself. My fears of abandonment are being triggered. I don't trust she'll actually come back, and I know things won't be the same, it will take awhile to get back to a good place when she comes back.

Tuesday is supposed to be our last session before her break, and I don't know what to do. I'm tempted to skip; I don't know if it will just be harder to go or what we would talk about.

Support, ideas, and encouragement appreciated. TIA